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I have reached a point beyond forgiveness and I''m so depressed, scared and disgusted with myself.
You could not imagine the life I've led. I knew God and grew up in a good family which makes it worse.
every sin you can imagine I have committed more than once.
The worst part is I didn't care. I have also become a mean, nasty human. I bullied someone and they committed suicide 1.5 yrs later.
I also made people sin by making them hate each other, get angry and stop talking to each other.
I know there is never going to be forgivness for me as I caused someone to commit suicide and lose their soul and also caused so many other to continue to sin and lose their forgiveness by not forgiving others.
How do I continue living now. I want to commit suicide but I'm scared but im going crazy at the same time being here,,,,,,,,,,, please help me
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Don't despair! We have a Lord that loves us, in spite of all we've done! Remember that it is His "good pleasure to give you the Kingdom!"
Our Lord wants our salvation, and He is willing to accept every one, and there is no sin too great for His love not to heal :). He came for people like you and I -- people broken and wounded and in need of help.
You've done so well in speaking up! It's so important for you to get company and advice in your struggle. Is there a priest or trusted servant in your church that you can talk to? When we're down like this, having support and company is really critical.
We're all praying for you.
Your brother,
G
thank you for coming here to let this off your chest.. that shows your strength..
oujai khan ebshois
some saints could have said they are worse than you because killers don't waste time and never give a chance to the person they killed. On the other hand you were much softer than any of them because through bullying that person had a chance after a chance to regret what they were thinking of but they didn't.. maybe because of you or maybe because of something else I don't know. In any case if you keep looking at the past you are not going to move one step forward..
Don't be shackled with the tethers of the past, but release yourself asking God to help you and I am sure He will.
Pray for me and my wife too please..
oujai khan ebshois
We all love you as a sister in Christ, despite never meeting you; imagine how much the Lord loves you, who knows your penitent heart! There is no sin too great for Him, no matter what you've done. After all, He is Goodness itself. He is always looking for the little good in us. Trust in His mercy and love. He is so quick to forgive. Don't be deceived into thinking that any sin is too great for His mercy.
Please, do open up to a trusted priest or counsellor. Don't fear! Weeping endures for a night, but joy comes in the morning :)
God knows what is in everyone's hearts, so unless we know the depths of His compassion and love we can not say the person will not be saved.
It is infinitely good that in your opening letter you show much conscience and sorrow for what has past, and for those things, you can use as a lesson to correct yourself. Also, look out for the good things that happen as you can thank God for those blessings.
I pray you don't judge yourself to a final condemnation as the final word is with our Lord Jesus Christ.
Sometimes we assume so much and judge ourselves and others and it becomes a self for filling prophecy when in truth it is in God's hands all the time.
May God bring you peace.